My survey..(taken from rach/jo's blog)

1. Huey Li

2. Vincent
3. Augustin
4. Azraai
5. Matthew
6. Andrew
7. Rachel
8. Avinaash
9. Joanne
10. Levia

(youngest to oldest)

Questions:

How do you know 1?
We were in junior together..i've known her quiet long actually..even though she's far she's always there :)

What would you do if you never met 2?
I would not have played dota..or any online games..or not get interested in some animes..haha thanks vin

would 3&4 make a good couple?
HEll NOOO...he's like my young bro..and he likes someone else...hehehehe..(i think)

What would do if 5 & 6 dated you?
If 5 dated me.....the world will end on the spot..If 6 dated me...teng will kill me hahahaha..and plus only teng can keep him under control

Do you think is 7 attractive?
Yes even though she doesnt admit it...

do you know anything about 8's family?
He's an only child and he really loves his mum :D

tell me something about 9
Probably the most cheerful person i've met..she never ceases to make me laugh..she's blur yet smart..how odd..she's beautiful but she denies it and IF she actually eats..waaahhh...haha..oh and she's my sis :D

what language does 10 speak?
English,Bm,chinese/cantonese...and the language of the guys..hahahahaha figure that one out :D

Who is 1 going out with?
Hmmmm...not sure..i dont think she's dating anyone..

How old is 2?
16 going 17

3 single?
For now...

who is 4's favourite singer?
CELINE DION!!!!Bon Jovi!!Simple Plan!!Linkin Park!!PARAMORE!!(rock on Aisyah XD)

what is 5's last name?
Erm...His name is Matthew Lo Hon Mun..(which one is the last name..)well Li Yun or Emily Cheah should know XD

what school does 6 go to?
The same school as me duhhhh..but he wishes he's in an all girl school.. :p

what do u dislike abotu 7?
Hmmmm...she can be nastier than Matthew..at times :p

would you consider being in a relationship with 8?
Erm...wth???(who in the heck came up with all this questions??)

would you date 9?
Definitely...but she's too shy...even though its for fun.. = =hahaha

what is 10 good at?
Sports..Geografi(i think) oh and she's very good at shutting andrew up :D

(I've added new questions :D)

What do you like about 1??
She's very bubbly hehehe

Do you find 2 annoying??
At times..but he's so darn funny when it comes to kutuk-ing Drew..hahaha

What is 3's darkest secret??
If i told ya it wont be dark anymore..haha..well..lets just say only i know :D

(no comments to no.4)

What's 5 like??
ANNOYING!!!hahahahaha but he's a good friend but a terrible son as he goes againts my orders.. = =...and if someone hu likes to take pictures of them selves is a camwhore..so i guess matt is a camprostitute..??hahahaha

What would you do without 6??
I have no one else to tease..and share my probs with..well lets just say its all negative...

What does 7 love the most??
Me la of course...hahahahah!!!joking joking..XD she loves Korean dudes the most..

What's the funniest thing 8 has ever done??
Too many to name.........and there's too many to remember hahaha

How does 9 affect you??
Well she's very open minded thats for sure..and she understands my concepts about life and its retardedness XD

(The survey's for fun and laughter aight...hahaha)

27/7..

My Birthday today..haha..well first of i would like to thank the people that wished me..(early wishes dont count.. hahahahahahahha!!! XD)
(List is in order)

Aisyah & Arezou for being the firsts haha had a great time talking to you guys..

Hana who's birthday is one day before mine..haha :p

Matthew my annoying yet awesome son

Jasmine whom kept me company all this while..thanks

Huey Li..sorry for not talking to you..been kinda busy.. :(

And the rest who wished...

Michelle Sheperdson

Rachel Wong

Joanne Leong

Nur Hanis

Jascinta

Augustin Mok

Andrew Yee

Athika

Suria

Anis

Nicole

Li Teng

Syarifah Syafiqah

Levia Yam

Irsyad,Andre,Aizat,Amirul

Liyana(sorry terlupa haha)

Nadja

Yoke Kien

Shi Kee

Owen

And last but not least my mum.. :D Juliana Heather

I would also like to take this oppurtunity to wish my dear friend Hana HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

P.S : Her birthday is on 26/7 while mine is on 27/7..awesome..haha

Even though my birthday today was one of the worsts..still thanks for wishing..oh and also thanks to jasmine athika and suria for the wallet :D

And also thanks to Nicole for bringing me a slice of cake :D it really made my day..to know that someone whom i just known this year actually remembered my birthday and cared enough to walk all the way up to deliver a piece of cake..THANKS

Also thanks to Aisyah whom shared probs with me and had a blast laughing out loud the night before.. :D

Even though today kinda sucks..its good to know people still care for..

GO MANCHESTER UNITED!!!!!!..and Malaysia

MU(manchester united) came to m'sia for their asian tour on Saturday 18/7/09 and i really wanted to go but then sigh..wasn't invited..i was kinda bumped about that but then..

On sunday my dad said that my bro will be taking me to go see MU again cause they are having a rematch with M'sia and i was like "OH YEA!!!!!"

So then on da way to the stadium we dropped by Iki's house..my bro's friend..nice guy actually and he speaks very fluent english..so in da car the four of us which includes me my bro+his gf myia..or maya..not sure..ok Nur Kamalia(aka myia/maya)hahaha and iki were like ya know chit chatting and stuff and my bro and myia are like once cpl i've never seen before cause they like so selumber with each other..like there was once..

My bro was like talking about something and then myia said something and he was like "fuck you" and i thought..uh oh..but then it was like joke or something then she called him a dumbass hahahahaha!..and in da car they were like fighting like cats hahaha it's kinda sweet yet akwarrrddd...(sorry mal..myia couldn't resist :P..haha you're in aust can't catch me!! heheheheh :D)

So upon arriving at the stadium the first thing was...tickets duh..and food!! ahahha..there were many different stalls there so we grabbed abit of here and there and munch down..

After entering the gate we took the seats on the 2nd floor and we got seats that were at an angle near the corner posts and MU attacked there at the first half so yea..awesome seats ^^..

I had a video cam with me at that time but now its with myia..so anyways we were all so excited waiting for the players to come out and when they did for their warmups..well...i was..hahah screaming their names out ya know like "omg i see rooney!!oh thats ferdinand!!!owen!!Woot woot"...hahaha and and there was this dude who wore Chelsea jersey and everyone at the area boo-ed him damn loud man hahahahahah padan muka!!!i could hear someone saying chelsea masuk laut ah..and something lan ciao..hahaha..

Then when the players entered the stadium the crowd went wild even though there were around 40k of em still..awesome..oh and we did the wave!!giler style dowh..Then we predicted scores..my bro said 6-o..(MU 6)...i said 4-1..myia said 4-2..Iki said..wait i forgot..hahaha sorry man :p

And when MU scored the first goal which i had recorded haha it was soo damn awesome and cool man!!my bro and i were like "gogogog pass!!cross!!camtu ah!!gogogo!!shoot owen shoot!!Shit grab the ball MACHEDA!!!!!SHOOT!!!!OH YEA GOAAAALLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!THATS THE WAY MAN THATS HOW MU ROLL1!!!WOWOWOWOWOWOOWOWOWOWOWW!!!

And yes the 2nd goal came and we went crazy again1!!!!hahahaha damn it was so awesome man..i can still fill the thrill inside me =D

And as the game went on and on it just shows why i love MU..damn they are so damn bloody good their ball co-ordinations and timing and placing is soooooooo awesome man..but the best part of that game was..the entry of the big guns..yeaaaaaaaaaaaa wen nani,ferdinand,anderson,berbatouv(how the heck you spell his name i dunno la)...and yes..ROONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WAS SCREAMING MY ASS OFF MAN!!!my bro and i were jumping up and down going ROONEY ROONEY ROONEY!!!!WOWOWOWOWOW!!

Hahahahah..and the best thing that happened was when Rooney kicked the Malaysian player!!!hahahahahah it was so damn Fucking funny!!!(damn i cursed..trying not too but i cant help it)..Rooney just raised his leg and that guy flew all the way haahahhaha!!!!

Phew..well i really had a blast and we went to MMZ for supper..and headed back home..damn i haven't had that much fun since Penang..sigh..all my probs just flew away but when i was in da car something happened so...sigh it was shortlived but i loved every minute of it..

Mal if you're reading this..well its the best birthday present you gave so far..(even thoug its Bapak's money..)hahahahah..well thanks bro..i'll get ya something awesome next year kay : D..hahaha

Over and out~

"Setiap pasangan jodoh..tidak akan lari"

Today everyone was damn emo..including me..

Well i had several reasons why but i'm not gonna mention it here..lazy type it all out..well lets just say i was damn pissed and i kept on punching walls..and now my fingers and knuckles hurt like hell hahahahah :p

Well what was so unexpected was that i had tuition at 4.30..home tuition right and i've known my teacher since form 1..so we share alot together hahaha..

So well lately i have been problems with my feelings and she realized that today so she asked what was wrong so i let it out la..

Well i told her that i had trouble with love...and we kept on going on about it for about half an hour hahaha then she gave me good advice..like for example she was saying..

"Rai..if you truly love her and its not a crush which teenagers face all the time..then tell her that after SPM how you truly feel..after you have looked into your ownself and if you do love her..then you'll feel that you won't survive without her....and you might get confused that maybe she too has feelings for you( well i told her hellll nooo hahahah) so just forget about it for now..see how it goes during this 4 months of concentrating on SPM..if she shows you some signs then tell her how you feel in the end.."

So i was like what if she does and i tak layan her and all that..won't that push her away??..then my teacher said this..

"Setiap pasangan jodoh..tidak akan lari.."" If she does have feelings for you then both of you will wait..for when the time is right for you to once again tell her how you feel after..analysing yourself and found your true feelings.."

Whoa...hahahahha

I love this song man..

Michael Jackson
They Don't Care About Us

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, aggravation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Bang bang, shot dead
Everybody's gone mad

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Beat me, hate me
You can never break me
Will me, thrill me
You can never kill me
Jew me, Sue me
Everybody do me
Kick me, kike me
Don't you black or white me

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Tell me what has become of my life
I have a wife and two
children who love me
I am the victim of
police brutality, now
I'm tired of bein' the victim of hate
You're rapin' me of my pride
Oh, for God's sake
I look to heaven to
fulfill its prophecy...
Set me free

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
trepidation, speculation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
black man, black mail
Throw your brother in jail

[ Find more Lyrics on www.mp3lyrics.org/vL ]
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Tell me what has become of my rights
Am I invisible because you ignore me?
Your proclamation promised
me free liberty, now
I'm tired of bein' the victim of shame
They're throwing me in a
class with a bad name
I can't believe this is the
land from which I came
You know I do really hate to say it
The government don't wanna see
But if Roosevelt was livin'
He wouldn't let this be, no, no

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, speculation
Everybody litigation
Beat me, bash me
You can never trash me
Hick me, kick me
You can never get me

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Some things in life they
just don't wanna see
But if Martin Luther was livin'
He wouldn't let this be

Skin head, dead head
Everybody gone bad
Situation, segregation
Everybody allegation
In the suite, on the news
Everybody dog food
Kick me, kike me
Don't you wrong or right me

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

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I've not been updating lately cause everytime i want to there's this voice that says"wtf la i'm too lazy.." and i'll just laze around as always..but now is different..

Lately i've been so *******pissed off and i'm going haywire..everyday after i come back home my entire internal organs start aching and why the **** it is i dunno...even now i'm cursing for no ******* reason..

I've had certain things that made me pissed off the whole week..such as my feelings that keep on being swirled together in a blender..next is i get so ******* pissed off with parents..i mean they dump all of their responsibilites on me..wtf la..expect me to take care of everyone all the time is it??...***************************...even know they do it..they dont see it from my eyes just their own and in theirs it says that "i'm right he's wrong.." buka la mata sikit **********..thank god my mum is an angel..otherwise i wouldnt hold back on hitting them one day..

And people in school..i'm refering to annoying ********..every second of my entire schooling hours sure ader orang yang sukaaaaaaaa giler kacau..tak leh bla..and to SOME people who can't accept other people's differences and their interests just stfu and dont give ******* comments..if u dont like it then just keep it to yourself..***********...

Another thing..even though me being near you helps put all of this in a garbage truck and i have a good time talking to you..even just standing beside you calms me down..however yea i know its impossible..so i'd better come up with ways to forget..but everytime i do i get lost and confused..ish....

I keep on watching Hitch..the movie where will smith acted as some date doctor.. the part when he was in the speed dating room and pouring out his reasons on why he did it is my favourite part..."And this here..this part right here is why falling in love is so damn FUCKING HARD"..classic..and i think i get what he means..even though its a movie..it brought alot of meaning..

And another thing..just like my dear friend who just got her heart devastated..we both were talking about why is it so hard to get happiness when we see and help others infront of us attain it..and when we do find it even for a slight moment it gets ripped away from us...**********..

But mainly why i've been so frustrated and annoyed this past few days cause life has been so frustrating and annoying..and it seems that i became more sadistic..dunno why..sigh.......I'm just waiting for all of this to just go away..if being hurt over and over and over again to such an extent that's too much just to gain happiness..well i rather be ******* lonely by myself..hurts less and i can concentrate on my studies..

However you're there to stop it..sigh....even though the results are clear in my head..i'm trying my best just to look away..but i takut nanti our friendship boom...omfg la i'm so confused.............................